This was a sign posted on a broken tree among the aftermath of one of the tornadoes that hit a local county Saturday evening. Homes were lost, people were injured, the damage is devastating, but the one thing that a tornado can't take from these people--or anyone for that matter--is their faith.
"No matter what, trust God." This is something that I have been diligently trying to work on in my own life, trusting God. Having taken a huge leap of faith and quitting my job shortly after the baby was born, I have been facing fears that things may not work out, fears of having to rely on the hubs when I've never relied on anyone my entire life. The security of knowing that I will be taken care of because I take care of myself has vanished. My peace of mind has always been determined by my sense of security and I'm currently struggling to maintain my peace of mind without it. I am trying to rebuild my relationship with God. I have finally arrived at a point where I have accepted that I am not perfect and that I have a long way to go to be in the place I need to be but I am taking baby steps to arrive there. I have been praying for the ability to trust Him rather than scramble around frantically trying to mend the things of my life or to always have a solution readily available rather than relying on Him to take care of things, to show me which path to take, to trust. A few days after leaving my job my car left my baby and I broken down on the side of the road. My first thought was that it was a sign that I had made the wrong decision leaving work and then that thought was crowded out by one a bit louder telling me, or perhaps God has created an opportunity for you to trust Him. I decided not to act on the reply to give him a call, a response to the email I had sent to my boss inquiring about the possibility of coming back. Though a constant struggle, I decided to trust.
Recently, I have been finding acute inspiration from various poems that I have come across. Getting back to my 37 Days project compilation that I abandoned shortly after the new year, I decided to create my own 37 Days project and post these inspirational poems here on my blog for the next 37 days. Even if I am unable to post personal blogs, I will remain committed to these poems in hopes of, if for no one else, uplifting myself, offering hope, instilling peace.
I'll begin with this motivational quote I found on a bottle of body wash, no doubt. The company Philosophy is all about luxurious and scrumptious bath and body products, each bottle containing a fun and feel-good quote, shampoo for the body and soul, if you will. This one I found particularly inspiring. It's called Shear Splendor, and splendor it is; the bottle reads:
we dream of the perfect life, perfect health, the perfect relationship, even perfect hair. in doing so we lost sight of the most perfect thing there is. we call it the perfect plan. it is the invisible energy life force that directs our every move, every triumph and every set back. it is the master plan that requires no perfection. once you surrender to it you genuinely see the perfection that is God's plan.
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